i'm thinking things in my life need to slow down now.(currently lookin up at the ceiling while i'm saying this to myself over and over and over agian..) not quite sure if the big man upstairs is hearing me sometimes. i just need some sort of slight pause on the busy schdule. it's going so fast that i wake up late, maybe because my bed is so comfortable...
back on track..
that should be the title of this blog. i should be back on track, but i'm guessing it's going to take a week or so to get there. stupid old apartment likes to ruin my life and take all my money. don't they know my bday is in 28 days...geez. speaking of 28days...i was watching that movie lastnight..i fell asleep to it, so i'm going to watch it again. i love sandra bullock, she's an awesome actress. anyways, let me get back on track. i have so many things that i need to do along with what i've half done and want to do. ridiculous that there's so much floating around as far as getting stuff done. there's still all these things i need to get for my apartment and this next check is going straight to the rent..guess that's part of being an adult. speaking of adulthood and being on track..the main squeeze informed me that i'm now more grown up than him...mainly because i have a house phone in my name..i'll never use it,but it's there. so i guess i'm growing up before my very own eyes...hmm. i don't know about all of that. what i do know is that adulthood is expensive. another reason i sometimes reminence about highschool...then i bounce back to reality and realize that i enjoy my life now...i did then too though..when things were so cheap and simple and just ignorant..funny how thinking about progress takes you back to when you couldn't fathom exsisting where you are now..
too deep? never too deep.
(sighs to myself because there's so much i want to say about the past)..not for this one though..we'll save that.
my favorite thing about my life?..the fact that the people i'm around are the people i choose to be around...minus school..there are some dummies around me, i'm just doing my best to ignore them and make about my way. i like to go with the boy on movie dates and spend some time with friends, but i'm not much on doing too much. i like it fast when it comes to business and slow when it comes to personal..don't know if that makes me strange..don't care either..
the biggest step so far?..making time for me and being okay with it. i recently had this issue with giving myself a break and really catering to my personal needs, i'm finding that i'm easy going and it's not hard to please me. something i wish i could have made time for before, but i know i wouldn't have appreciated it the same. blessing in disguise. i honestly like the time i have alone in my apartment with nala..i do start to miss company and that's when i get cozy (: (not alone)..by the way..cozy means..well use ur imagination. (:
how's my health?..i'm making progress.. i really need to do more, but as far as my environment...i'm doing well. i have all healthy foods and cleaning products and i'm working towards clensing myself of bad habits. the next step is coming up with a workout plan, that's gonna be the hard part considering i have NO time..but i'm learning my me-time is going to include some of the wellness time each week. gym is down at the apartment and should be up and running soon, until then i guess it's just the basic stuff at home, and just staying on track (;
i guess as far as making my way down the right track, i'm keeping up with people that matter. part of what i mentioned earlier was that i'm not around people, and i don't mean people in general..what i meant was that i've removed some people in my life that have questionable motives for my friendship and i'm learnig how to let go of the ones that just simply let go of me and to stop caring why i wasn't enough for them..mainly because i'm enough for me (:
it's whateva.. i don't chase 'em i replace 'em!
--> biggie y'all get ya mind right.
so i've got about 37 mins left at work and i think i started this at 12 to give me something to do. let me spend some time searching for a good photo to put with it. & i'm tryin to switch up the layout..get something fun..or different...hopefully both.
-b
